.:...:.

An eye for an eye? I honestly, can't do it. Not towards someone that I once cared.

I know it upsets the people around me, I seriously can't do it. Maybe, maybe, I am just too soft hearted and too kind.

Maybe I am just, plain stupid..

But I promised myself that I will never be THAT stupid anymore.

Lies and betrayals have left me speechless and pretty much fed up with alot of things.

It's a part of life, so, yeah, I accept them with open heart.

The joke is, I don't even know how to be emotional about being betrayed and lied again.

I was upset for maybe a night, I felt better the next day, even though I still feel stupid.

-.-

Yeah. There isn't much point dwelling over my stupidity isn't it? But to accept the fact that I was stupid enough to be betrayed by someone I trusted whole heartedly?

It's kinda funny towards the end of the day.

The only guilt I felt the whole time was not being stupid but for being obstinate and not listening to my parents from the start. They said parents always knew best because they have been through different aspects in life. It is true, but I've definitely learnt some valuable lessons for the past 18 months over here in Hobart. :)

Anyways, I've recollected my thoughts and feelings. Sorted things out and realized that I am happy the way I am. (:

...

I am so fucking stupid sometimes.
Someone please shoot me if I ever make the same mistake again.
WTF!
I am so stupid I am so stupid I am so stupid I am so stupid I am so stupid!
WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!WTF!

.:Untitled:.

Been really confused with how I really feel sometimes.

Whatever it is.

I know it is not real towards the end of the day.

I know. Things will never end in a fairy tale way.

Why bother picking it up when I know I'll get burn towards the end of the day?

2 more weeks and I'll say goodbye to hobart and Australia soon.

:)

Home. Here I come.

.:Question:.

What is wrong with keeping quiet?

So what if I know? How would confrontation change the situation?

Isn't it best to be ignorant towards the real deal when it is actually not too much of an issue?

Is it necessary to let the words of others to bother me?

Do I even care in the first place?

It's frustrating when people care more than I do.

On the brighter side. Tuesday is tomorrow. (: three days of laughters again.

Haven't been this genuinely happy for a long time.
been genuinely happy since MelBie cus mummy+daddy was there. Easter B.b +ngah ming is there too. So is my eli wetwet and martian mama.

Sydney trip was just mind blowing.
Coming back to hobart is just depressing. But tomorrow is tuesday. Sydney's coming down. (:

hahahaha.

I have evil plans in mind ;)

.:Expectations:.

Do not expect too much from life for it will lead you into roads that will surprise you.

Either you like it, or you don't.

Be spontaneous and be happy. :) That doesn't mean you don't have to be serious.

sydney was fun. Enjoyed myself so much I feel like jumping on the next flight back there to have more fun. :)

XX

.:The few reasons why I love you so:.

The way you would hold me and assured me that everything would be alright even though it felt like my whole world was crumbling down.

The soft, tender way you would talk to me even though we ended up in heated arguments even though I've hurt you so.

The way you always pamper and spoils me.

For always being my backbone no matter how I choose to live

..most important of all.

I love you so for being my father.

This is a little late Daddy.

Happy Father's day!! :)

I love you so much daddy!!

Being able to spend father's day with you in melb was great!

See you next month daddy!!

x33

.:out of boredom:.

Pretty true and accurate about me generally. Go www.quizbox.com if you want to have a go at it as well :)
Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.